signals

So today was pretty bland.
I thought of you all day
playing in your band.
I wonder what you'd say
if you knew.

You don't know, though.
And I'm just here.
my brain is telling me to go,
but my destination is unclear.
The light is really red.

I see you pass me by.
I'm sitting here thinking.
And as I start to cry,
I think I'll take up drinking.

The light in me head
and the light in my face.
One will make me dead
and the other a disgrace.

I couldn't catch you now
even if I tried.
I don't even remember how
to let you inside.